47-Quiet Your Mind

So I suppose it's time to account for the lack of updates on my part lately. The honest truth is I've been struggling, in every sense of the word. I'm not complaining, quite the opposite, but I think it's due time that I admit to myself and everyone else that it's not the best of times for me. I've had a lot thrown at me recently, and my life has been thrown in all different directions. Every day I feel like I have a new mountain to climb, and the whole time, I'm wearing flip flops, struggling to get up the first hill.
I'm lucky to have the people in my life that I have. I've got the best friends and family I ever could have asked for. But sometimes it's hard to see through the muck to the brighter side.
Assume what you will, because I know people are going to, but my problems don't revolve around just one thing. I was telling a friend yesterday that 2010 has had my highest highs and my lowest lows. I can't call it a bad year, nor would I want to. If anything, it's taught me some of the most valuable lessons I've ever learned.
I'm beginning again in so many ways in my life, and it's scary, but it's also really, really exhilarating. I know that once this storm (or series of storms, rather) breaks, I'll be able to see the sun and it will be brighter than it's ever been for me. It just takes time, and for the moment, I'll just have to wait.

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42- Different Day

Do something different today. Something big, something small. Something. Anything. Just quit making excuses, and do it.


What are you going to do differently today?
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37-The Book I Read

As some of you may or may not know, I'm a very, very avid reader. A few years ago, I actually built my own book shelf in order to have one place to put my books. Well, enough time has passed that my book shelf is now overflowing and my books are spilling out onto the floor. The overflow books need a new home of their own. Since I've been on a cleaning/redecorating/organizing kick, I took to the internet to see what could be done about this. As much as I would love to make another book shelf of my own, I don't have the time or resources (and frankly, I don't have the room). So with space being my biggest roadblock, I scoured the internet looking for the perfect solution, and of course, I found it. A bookcase headboard. Please tell me this isn't the most genius idea ever?! I honestly never would have even thought about something like that, but alas, they exist, they're cute, and they're the perfect solution to my problem! I'm still juggling back and forth between a few options, but this is definitely next up on my list of things to get.

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30-In My Darkest Hour, I Will Be Free

Sometimes a little piece of good advice is all you need:

Especially when it comes at just the right time in your life.

28-Without a Doubt, You're Ahead of Your Time

So this blog is about to become what it was originally intended for: a mish-mash of all the things that come to my head, all the things that make up my life, whether or not you find them interesting, they're just me. I've been doing a lot of abstract and removed entries, and I'm going to try and do a proper update while I have the mind to do it.

Everything is so incredibly different in my life now. I'm a raft guide on a beautiful river, I am doing anything and everything that I want to, exactly how I want to do it, and if it doesn't work out, I only have myself to blame. It's the first time in a long time...in fact, ever, that I've been able to say that, and I love this feeling.

It's damn near impossible to sum up the last 5 months of my life in a single entry, so I'll just let it flow out as it comes, if it comes, and that'll be that.

I've met some of the most amazing and influential people in the last few months, and I've learned so much about myself and the world. I don't think I've ever been more myself in my life...it's amazing.

Taking photographs is something I've always done for myself. I went through some rough times, personally, and the camera kind of got pushed into the background, but I've been taking it with me everywhere lately, and I've been getting some great results out of it. I saved a ton of my pictures to a disc so that I can print them out and make the coffee table book I've been wanting to make for ages. I swear I'm going to make it happen...eventually.

I plan on going West with some friends this Winter and I'm very excited about it. Plans haven't been finalized, so I'm going to keep mum for now, but I promise to update with the details as they come.

21-I am my Own Ragged Company

13/365- Tilt, originally uploaded by monica jennison.

It's been a tough week.