So I suppose it's time to account for the lack of updates on my part lately. The honest truth is I've been struggling, in every sense of the word. I'm not complaining, quite the opposite, but I think it's due time that I admit to myself and everyone else that it's not the best of times for me. I've had a lot thrown at me recently, and my life has been thrown in all different directions. Every day I feel like I have a new mountain to climb, and the whole time, I'm wearing flip flops, struggling to get up the first hill.
I'm lucky to have the people in my life that I have. I've got the best friends and family I ever could have asked for. But sometimes it's hard to see through the muck to the brighter side.
Assume what you will, because I know people are going to, but my problems don't revolve around just one thing. I was telling a friend yesterday that 2010 has had my highest highs and my lowest lows. I can't call it a bad year, nor would I want to. If anything, it's taught me some of the most valuable lessons I've ever learned.
I'm beginning again in so many ways in my life, and it's scary, but it's also really, really exhilarating. I know that once this storm (or series of storms, rather) breaks, I'll be able to see the sun and it will be brighter than it's ever been for me. It just takes time, and for the moment, I'll just have to wait.
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sometimes, the beauty of life is finding your way through the muck to the other side. it only does good things for you, in the end.
ReplyDeleteand i know you've been through a lot this year, but you are SO.YOUNG. you have so much fun to have in your 20's yet, that this will just be one more stepping stone by the time you're my age :)
you're right, you have grown so much this year. and while I don't know much about anything, that doesn't matter. I only want the best for you!
ReplyDeleteWaiting for the storms to pass is the worst part, but you've got patience and you make the best of everything. If you need to talk, just let me know hun!
I know what you mean about a year of highest highs and lowest lows--that was July 2008 through maybe September/October 2009, for me. Not exactly a calendar year, I know, but like you that period taught me a lot about myself and about people, friendships, relationships, etc. Just make sure that you continue to be so positive even about the negative aspects :)
ReplyDeleteIf I'm honest, I've had a lot of highs and lows this year as well. Life is such a roller coaster, isn't it?
ReplyDelete*Hugs*
I hope things will get better soon for you. I've got my hands full at the moment and I feel like a juggler with all balls uncaught. So i know exactly how you're feeling :)
ReplyDeletehang in there monica, you'll get through it. you're too strong not to.
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